The Famous Lullaby

When I was pregnant with Kaycee Isaac would sing Chris LeDoux songs and rub my feet. It was great. Especially after the longs days of working with customers and showing houses. Anyway, he still sings the same songs to Kaycee and she will crawl up next to him and just listen. It is sweet.

Well, these last couple of weeks she has started having separation anxiety. She feels the presence of the baby, which she asks for, and then switching days with a friend while we watched each others kid for school started affecting her. She has never been one for being babysat, and I really haven't had a babysitter watch her. This was a huge event in our life, to have her go to her friend’s house, without mom, for 6 hours a week. Anyway, so everything has been mom all over again. She asks for her dad but as long as she can see him that is good enough. She wants him in her presence but doesn't want him, if you know what I mean. Anyway, last night Isaac started singing to her and she cuddled up next to him. THEN she started singing along with him. She knew the words pretty good for her. As they sang Daily Bread by Chris LeDoux you could hear her words perfectly, the sweetest thing as she cuddled with her daddy, then her words became more slurred and heavy. The next thing we knew she was asleep. Isaac leaned over and gave her a kiss on the head and said, "I love you Kaycee." Very quietly and slow she said, "I love you daddy." It was the sweetest thing. She is such a precious little gift. I can just see her singing her baby brother to sleep. She already lays on my stomach and sings Twinkle Twinkle and the Wheels on the Bus to him. What a big girl! I can't believe how big she is getting. They really do grow up fast.

As I laid there listening and watching them sing together I started feeling anxiety. I can't imagine what it will be like as she gets older. My little niece will be 7 soon. It seems like she was just born. My little brother is going on a mission this summer. My baby sister is going to be 16 next winter. The time just flies. I finally felt how I am sure my mom is feeling at this time. Three of her kids are married and she is the grandma of almost 5. We are always told this life is short and we need to enjoy every minute. I remember when Kaycee was just born and had colic really bad. She would cry for hours and I had to sleep in a chair with her lying on my chest. Everyday I would wish the time away to when she would grow out of it. I think when we face these hard times we wish it away too much. Even when we are struggling we/I need to try and find that happy medium and just enjoy what we have and are going through. The learning experiences, the blessings, the growth. I think I take a lot of things for granted. I think that women are more emotional when they are pregnant so that they can reflect and better prepare themselves and their home for these situations.